Probably the most ridiculous thing about me is my brain's lack of respect for ordinary social conventions. Conventions such as time, or normality of dreams, or perhaps just the ordinary denial of existence of anything that can't be consciously identified.
Ever notice how often the consciously unidentifiable becomes regarded as worthless?
If anything the unidentifiable should be worth more since it is within the mysteries of the world that lie the most important discoveries.
But I digress.
Like I was saying, my brain has no respect for social norms or the term "impossible".
In a world where we can't explain how an electron moves from ring to ring around a cluster of nuetrons and protons, the word "impossible" should probably not exist.
Impossibility, like Time, is a matter of perception.
By all accounts of the physical rules of the Earth (as per Newton and Einstein, etc.) the behaviour of said atoms is phyisically impossible.
And yet, it happens.
So, doesn't this denote a sort of out-dated understanding?
No.
It is simply one way to understand the world. And so far as observable data and general rules about the earth, it works. The problem is when people start trying to use these tools to measure things they were not made for: like the universe. Trying to measure the universe in means of light years and miles per second is like trying to measure the Earth's density in the weight of rabbit fur.
In order to more fully understand things, ideas must adapt. Ideas we have now, especially about the importance of controlled testing, are antiquated. The reason why I think controlled testing is sort of antiquated is the importance placed on statistical evidence. It's all very interesting, but all it does is perpetuate our ideas we have about the world. Sometimes, looking in the "wrong" place is the only place to find an answer. The answers lie in the "wrong" and unlikely places. The most rational thing is the supposedly "irrational", because the universe doesn't operate in any way in which humans can possibly understand with their reason. Our reason is so primitive, it's silly for us to parade around like we have the answer.
The singular most important answer is there is more than one answer!
And also that irony and self-contradiction are extremely helpful. If we don't doubt ourselves, how do we discover anything new?
Anyway,
I was going to write about my episodes of déjà vu, which ties into all of this other stuff I've been talking about...
Okay, so when I was about 10, I had a dream I was playing soccer and talking to my friend Ethan about Burger King.
At the time, I had never played soccer and didn't know anyone named Ethan. Four years later, when I was 14, I was playing soccer at the YMCA with my friend Ethan and we were talking about Burger King. Everything in that moment looked, smelled, and felt exactly as it had in my dream. I had dreamed it, but it was happening. At the time, I had to sit down because I almost fainted.
This sort of thing happens to me all the time- except now I'm used to it so I don't feel like I'm going to pass out. It happens to my father as well, and my sister.
In neurology, my dad says they explain it like this:
The human brain doesn't recognize Time. Time is an artificial custom imposed by society to make sure people show up at the same time, same place, type thing. Just like boundaries on maps are simply conventions used by humans so they can have something to talk about.
Anyway, so the human brain doesn't perceive time like a clock: so when one has déjà vu, one has already experienced the event, but a part of the brain tells you it happened before... Now, to add to the confusion of this, when I was 10, I distinctly remember waking up and remembering my soccer dream, which is one of the reasons why it shocked me so. So apparently, if I understand this theory correctly, which I kind of doubt, the dream when I was 10 was an echo of something I had already done when I was 14. They call them reverberations, but isn't that SO FREAKING COOL?!
People say there is a rational explanation for everything, but wouldn't it be so amazing if the most rational explanation is the lack of rational reasoning? What if we have been so caught up in using our logic, we have forgotten that we have other faculties as well. It's almost like we've become so dependent on our logic, that we're afraid to use any other part of our brain: the part that we don't really pay attention to. The part they call our subconscious, may not actually be out of our conscious reach, but is simply more subtle and less developed.
It comes down to letting go of the world and all you've learned and embracing the unknown. It sort of borders on mystic: but that is where science and religion meet. Both attempt to explain the unknown, but both, in their pure form, are based in the pursuit of the unknown. But sometimes, the unknown can be the most known and it is, most certainly, the most important.
Anyway, I am tired.
Ridiculous, unconsciously, irrational me.
